Endless rambling of doom 8D

So err, I've been thinking... I seem to spend more time coloring than anything else. Shading is the most time-consuming and annoying part lol. And when I consider the cartoons I like none of them really have shading... Simpsons, American Dada and such. Then again Anime does (I used to watch toooo much Pokemon) so yeah, going off track XD

Point is I'd rather spend more time on actual design, detail and lineart rather than coloring >.< as awesome as other people's coloring looks, I'd rather have a super simple (lazy) style... even considering having an alternate 'smaller' style for comics and perhaps animations. Ya know, when I find enough time and motivation to do such lol.

I need to think realistically as well as ideally I guess... when I imagine movement and scenes of my characters it all moves/looks very realistic... EH might as well be a live action thingy, fffffff. I vaguely imagine angles and BGs etc. but not a million years can draw them >.<'

So err, I'm rambling again 8D... basically I should be experimenting and doodling instead of being online typing about it all, asdfghjkl.

But, in all honesty, I'm just not very motivated recently D; I wanna focus on my actual life, even though my dream many years ago WAS to create a novel/comic/TV series -________-' god I was delusional lololol~

So yeah, gotta be more realistic. Now I'm aiming to make comics. God knows when and God better know how X'D in the mean time; gotta practice and find a suitable art style, work on settings, actual plot lines maybe (Glee is inspiring the F**k outta me recently, though the last thing I wanna do is COPY it OTL) even though there's some similarities...

All I know is EH started soooo small; it was basically just endless love stories about Jason and Sammi... someone smack the 13-year-old me with a hammer please???
Now... I feel like I have little story ideas oozing out of my ears every night and every morning lol. I jot soooo much down e3o and all I do is shove it in a folder to be found months later when I totally forgot about it and now have to find out how to introduce it or whatever X'D

EH (somehow) has become this ever expanding thingy that doesn't get boring, per say, just... overwhelming >.< example; one idea I had was to write a 'book' for each character I have, completely from their POV, since I'm quite good with diary style stories. But then I go back to the idea where only a few (even only ONE) character really matters, and that I should just stick to the mains... even though I have some fun side characters I really wanna develop lol.

Maybe I should cut the crap and just have Emerald High as the 'umbrella' title????????
Meaning I could have loads of stories and characters and stuff going on everywhere but have different title/subtitles for them? e.g. "EH: Welcome to life" is actually the subtitle for Season 4.

Though, after all the pointless over-thinking I tend to do, lolol, my problem remains; I can't seem to finish ANYTHING *headdesk* OTL

I start a story every damn week but it only ends up going no where and making no sense >8U I just find thinking up and starting things is fuuuuuun, then I just get bored/can't be bothered/can't find time... I swear there's something wrong with my brain lol -u-' or my schedule, either way 8D

Yeah. So if you've read this; thanks for wasting your time, I love you so much!!! 8''D *slapped*